Parke put it best the other night when he said, "the universe is not a fair place."
And yeah, I know, nobody ever said life was fair.
I started reading a book the other day that listed all of the things that they suggested parents who have lost a child should do before trying again.
Most of them I can get behind...go to the dentist, exercise, find a support system...
But then they hit me with this one, "make sure you and your husband would be okay if it happens to you again."
No, I would not be okay if I lost another baby.
I am not okay with losing my first child.
What about every person at my gym, church, and office who all seem to have a baby with them...is anyone asking them if they are okay with losing that child? Of course not. So why should I have to?
If I ever get pregnant again, I don't care if it is tomorrow or ten years from now, it is because I have taken a leap of faith.
I know the world is not a fair place. I know that bad things happen to good people. But honestly, I think the universe has asked enough of me for now.